HYUNKI & JIAN

faint background noises, someone laughing. don’t come at me for being day drunk, that’s the only reason i’m sending this, aight? deep sigh. look, i can’t sleep. haven’t properly slept since we facetimed. can’t sleep, so i got no energy to perform. but the show must go on, right? short bitter chuckle. i only take small doses because like i said, not my usual dealer, don’t know what’s in it. i’m not a fucking idiot. silence. sounds of someone approaching, her voice sounds a little further away. merci. one small sip. that night i just… overdid it. but i’m fine. i wasn’t in any danger, just extremely fucking high. more sounds of her sipping. truth is i- silence. truth is i fucking want you here. but i can’t ask that. and i won’t. so i’m coping the best i fucking can. don’t make me feel even more guilty than i already fucking do. please. a few seconds of silence, someone screaming in french. her voice barely audible. miss you.